Monday, March 1, 2010
Friday, February 26, 2010
Current weight : 228.4
I lie awake inside my box.
Handful of dirt from my
Flowers lined up
Only lit headlights
in broad day light could
have finalized it this way,
as in my box.
Ive been down there
for years thinking
AT LONG LAST.
born into the ground
allows me to be
in the present moment
and at ONE
with the drive.
Now i can return
to the embryonic state from i came.
I AM EMBRYONIC.
I HAVE RETURNED TO
AT LONG LAST.
I had a non fat latte and a perfect oatmeal with splenda and none of the toppings it comes with. You know, the nut medley, dried fruit and brown sugar. My daughter likes to eat the nut medley and dried fruit for me. I give it to her as a treat.
I was so proud of her last night. She came up to me with a tangerine and asked me to peel it for her. Then she said, "Isn't fruit so much better than candy?"
Beautiful. I hope I can build upon those healthy habits so when she gets to be my age, she has a healthy relationship with food, and not a food addiction that drives her to self destruct as it does to me.
I feel really good about where my life is going in terms of my weight loss, my academic life and motherhood. I feel that I have so much potential within me, and if I just apply myself and be honest with those who would help me, then I could really go far.
My goal weight loss this week is 1-2 pounds.
I thought I needed another fill, but I think I will wait it out another week and see if I can make some behavioral changes in my eating first. I am going to try not to eat past 7 pm for one week and see if that has any good results.
I am also trying to get back on a regular sleep schedule.
Wish me luck, even though if I apply myself, luck will play no part in my success.
"To infinity, and BEYOND." Buzz Lightyear
Tuesday, February 23, 2010
I am not Irish, nor do I presume to be, but I am feeling rather superstitious today and feel it would be nice to have an Irish wedding ring, otherwise known as a Claddagh Ring. I saw some beautiful ones on ebay.
Friday, February 19, 2010
Thursday, February 11, 2010
Today, I was given 5 pairs of beautiful capri pants. I love them, but there is a slight problem that prevents me from wearing these pants- They are size 14 and I am a size 22. I comfortably fit into a size 22 but it is a big improvement (in my eyes and maybe mine only) because not that long ago, I was wearing a size 26 with very much difficulty. I have already managed to go down 4 sizes.
Saturday, February 6, 2010
I have a hard admitting that I am powerless over food, even when the compulsion to go through the Starbucks drive through is so great that I some times roll through there 2 or 3 times a day, which I am sure is responsible for the slowing down of my weight loss or at least partially responsible.